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I have been not so subtly reminded I have not blogged in a while. I have been trying to deal with some stress and failing miserably. Ok so where to begin:

Bill has been ok for 3 weeks. Shadow seems to be fine although his sleepy twitch has continued for no apparent reason. I am concerned about the dynamic that has been created between Shadow and Squishy while Shadow was sick but I have no doubt they will work it out. I think Squishy is just finally hitting the age where he thinks he should be King but Shadow has always KNOWN he is King. Shrug

So last week Lex (Bill’s daughter) came home to visit some doctors and she and I and Bill ended up in the ER again since she was in pretty bad pain. She is doing fine now (we can tell because she starts annoying her father at every opportunity). We spent Sunday geocaching in Portland and then drove back up Saturday night and enjoyed a gorgeous day on Sunday by taking a nice walk and then I pressure washed the deck while Bill cleaned the yard. It is so nice to have 70 degree days in April even if I know they won’t last.

The cherry blossoms are blooming. This makes me happy and sad at the same time. Many of you may remember that last year at this time I lost my friend Evelyn. Evelyn and I always had a special connection and I miss her greatly. She was one of the best friends I have ever had… you know the type that you can go a little without talking to but one or the other picks up the phone and makes the call and you talk for hours and you feel like you just saw each other yesterday. Sigh… Well last year when I would see the cherry blossoms I would think of her and smile. This year I see them and I think of her and want to cry. I miss her so much and wish I could hug her again and see her smile.

I have been having nightmares too about people dropping to the ground and having to be rushed to the hospital. I know it’s PTSD and I know that when Bill tells me he is warm (the first sign he is having a problem) doesn’t mean he is going to pass out again but my brain just keeps popping it back up. The other night I had a dream he had a stroke. UGH! I know it will fade with time I just wish it would fade quicker. I don’t like focusing on the negative and since January there has been a lot of negative. So I will try and relax now and have a nice quiet week (well until Lex comes home again on Thursday for another dr appointment) and I WILL enjoy the sunshine while it lasts. This afternoon we plan to go walk by the water somewhere. Catch as many rays as I can before the clouds roll back through. Hehe

I have been having some fun between ER visits, went and saw the Lion King play which was awesome and have plans for some great concerts and baseball for this summer, 8 days till Opening Day! That should be fun! :-)

Now let's see if we can make it through April without an ER visit. :-) 6 days down... only 24 to go. ;-)